I’ve been completely ignorant of the blogging world and I was adamant that I was not going to succumb to Twitter (not really understanding it only fueled the fire)…until last week. In fact, I think that I actively avoided any parenting blogs, feeling somewhat inadequate on reading about all the amazing things others were doing with their children; my inferiority complex getting in the way again. All this changed when, quite by chance, I came across the blog www.edspire.co.uk and discovered a broken mummy having just lost her darling little 9 month old, Matilda Mae. This mummy’s openness, raw honesty and truly heartbreaking pain touched me deeply and I felt that I wanted to be with her and stand by her as a fellow mummy. This was when I realised the power of social media to bring people together…people who don’t know each other other than through what they write…and I saw the comfort that Jennie was getting through writing and receiving tweets and blog posts. I have been bowled over by the weight of grief from Jennie and all of those that follow her and instantly felt part of that; that my tears for beautiful Matilda Mae and her family were shared and transmitted as love back to those for whom the world had dealt a terrible blow. I have cried along with Jennie’s minute by minute tweets as she relived that awful night and sent back all that I could…just a few words…hoping they might offer some degree of support and knowledge that she was not alone in those darkest moments.
More than that, I have realised, through reading Jennie’s blog posts, that remembering all the little things that happen in a family, day to day, need remembering. I felt a compulsion to join this community which is not about who is the ‘best’ parent, but about sharing highs and lows in a shared spirit of love for friends and family and I want to note the mundane, the joyful, the frustrating and the painful aspects of parenting as experienced in this house. I don’t know Jennie, but she and Matilda Mae have touched my heart and her legacy will live on here through my endeavour to cherish the days with my two boys.
Rest in peace little Matilda Mae x